update

well i havent written here in a loooooooooooooooooooong time so here goes.......

ED is back and ill be going back into hospital between end of oct and early nov. nervous but ready. i think i am ;/

Its extremely foggy here...kinda neat

i found my digital camera cord so im excited about that as photography is one of my passions.

Today im feeling scared, hopeful, loved, and grateful. night is hardest for me depression wise. im ok though.

love you all

kt

ana

anorexia is running and ruining my life! im so angry and yet so entwined. i cant stop crying sometimes. i want my life back and i am scared to let go at the same time of this monster who is destroying me. what gives!? 

will i ever be free

or will death be my destiny

Its been a long time since Ive blogged so here I am....

Not much is new, same struggles with food, fighting binging, sticking to under 300 cals/day ive decided starting tomorrow. This includes liquid cals too.

Im currently 124 lbs and 5'3. Ya, disgusting i know. I hope to lose at least 25 lbs ASAP as long as IP and housing dont stand in my way.

I have fallen in love with Zumba and do it twice or more a day now too. Its so much fun and good cardio.It makes me happy. Zumba and powerwalking.

I just have to stop binging. Its stupid and I hate myself after. I feel more confident when restricting.

Anyways, yay for a new year and a new start.

happy new year everyone!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!