Monday, September 27, 2010
Sunday, September 26, 2010
day 8
day 8
so...this is day 8 of my fast and im feeling good....ive only had 2 blood sugar scares and i carry glucose tabs (15cals each) on me at all times in case i come close to fainting again.... the fainting seems to be worse/more easily triggered in and after a shower....i certainly dont want to faint naked,lol.....what a sight that would be.... so i seem to be stuck in the 102-102.8 range and im on my "e month" which makes me feel extra overweight because that means im still fat enough to get it....i went 2 years without it before.....i was under 100 for the longest time then though....im over 2 lbs away from that yet..... weigh in day at hospital ed clinic is on tuesday......i hate that someone else is going to know how heavy i am...how mortifying and embarassing, esp in an ed clinic where the weigh real ana angels..... im not a happy bunny today....and my blackberry is acting up....wont send pics:/.TE plateaus and weigh ins and curves of any kind...i just want bone! thats it... k
so...this is day 8 of my fast and im feeling good....ive only had 2 blood sugar scares and i carry glucose tabs (15cals each) on me at all times in case i come close to fainting again.... the fainting seems to be worse/more easily triggered in and after a shower....i certainly dont want to faint naked,lol.....what a sight that would be.... so i seem to be stuck in the 102-102.8 range and im on my "e month" which makes me feel extra overweight because that means im still fat enough to get it....i went 2 years without it before.....i was under 100 for the longest time then though....im over 2 lbs away from that yet..... weigh in day at hospital ed clinic is on tuesday......i hate that someone else is going to know how heavy i am...how mortifying and embarassing, esp in an ed clinic where the weigh real ana angels..... im not a happy bunny today....and my blackberry is acting up....wont send pics:/.TE plateaus and weigh ins and curves of any kind...i just want bone! thats it... k
Thursday, September 23, 2010
thin is in: day 5
thin is in: day 5: "not only am i plateaued but yesterday i was 104.6 and today im 104.8...AND IM FASTING! so wtf! im choked....... not the best way to start m..."
day 5
not only am i plateaued but yesterday i was 104.6 and today im 104.8...AND IM FASTING! so wtf! im choked.......
not the best way to start my morning even though its only 0.2 lbs, its a gain and im fasting so it angers me! im restricting water today and upping the diet pills....
weigh in is on the 28th....im a fat cow. i dont need them knowing that! i gotta lose before then.....
i gotta reach my goal of 80 at some point....i wont/cant stop till i do...
im pro-ana and pro-recovery......i support ppl where they are at....just not myself. For myself, anas my constant and i love, hate and need her/it. im addicted to fasting and weight loss and the high i get off it....the "anorexic high" they call it.....
i dont know what else to say or do.....
im 29, 5'3, fat, hate my body
not the best way to start my morning even though its only 0.2 lbs, its a gain and im fasting so it angers me! im restricting water today and upping the diet pills....
weigh in is on the 28th....im a fat cow. i dont need them knowing that! i gotta lose before then.....
i gotta reach my goal of 80 at some point....i wont/cant stop till i do...
im pro-ana and pro-recovery......i support ppl where they are at....just not myself. For myself, anas my constant and i love, hate and need her/it. im addicted to fasting and weight loss and the high i get off it....the "anorexic high" they call it.....
i dont know what else to say or do.....
im 29, 5'3, fat, hate my body
Tuesday, September 14, 2010
Sunday, September 12, 2010
Friday, September 10, 2010
first blog
just re-started fast...
fasted 7 days...ate a little for 10 minutes....now ive restarted so today is day 1....
i will reach my gw....
i will not give in again whether i plateau or not....
hopefully my metab is back on now though...
anyways thats all for now....
and yes, right now, im pro-ana....if you dont like it...dont comment. its a waste of your time and mine.
fasted 7 days...ate a little for 10 minutes....now ive restarted so today is day 1....
i will reach my gw....
i will not give in again whether i plateau or not....
hopefully my metab is back on now though...
anyways thats all for now....
and yes, right now, im pro-ana....if you dont like it...dont comment. its a waste of your time and mine.
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